this is me..

Today i feel crappy

Today i feel sucks

Today i feel lonely

I don't really know why have to be like this? maybe i just lost someone that love??

wait2 no2 it's not that reason..

I'm not that weak, it's not me

It's not SITTA

It's not SITTA who always make someone laugh

It's not SITTA who can make someone smile

It's not SITTA who always can break the ice

it's not SITTA who can always make everybody happy

No2 it's not me

So who am I??

Would you believe me if i said, that all of those attribute that was labeled upon me, made me who i am today?

Made me the SITTA AYU LESTARY you know now?

The women, the college student, the teacher, the dancer, the sister, the daughter

I used to be a very quite and shy girl

I rather to be quite and lonelier

I used to feel awkward when I'm in the middle of the people who looked at me

I used to be an ignore girl, who don't care about anything

Who never listen about anything

Suddenly i feel tired, tired of being nothing

Tired being the shadow of my popular friend

One day I said "that's it", enough I wanna be someone"

Someone that people can remember me

Someone that people can know me

So I tried to be talkative

I tried to be funny

And they like it

They like the new me

The even know me

Know me as SITTA

I exist

I was exist as a human

Today, when i do things, or when i want things, when i got so bullheaded about something,

When I forced people about somethings, it wasnt an attitude.

It was a movement.

A movement that I called CHANGE

I dont care if they hate me.

I don't have problem with them, so if they hate me, well that’s their loss.

I know when to stop.

I will stop if i cant move anymore.

I want to make them see, how i became the person I am today.